Buried my mother today. The hardest thing I've ever had to do in my whole life. Shit didn't feel like real life. It's the most surreal thing I've ever witnessed. Watching the casket close on my own mama fucked me up. I couldn't really accept the fact that that's my mama laying there and the moment the casket closed, reality set in. And it goes even deeper when they put her in the ground. I'm never gonna see my mama EVER again.